I started feeling a bit dizzy and wanting milky stuff a lot. But the major change is that I feel tired all the time. I sleep and sleep and sleep which is not good considering the amount of stuff I have to do…
There is only one problem: The wedding dress. And the problem is not the tummy, no. It’s the boobs!!! They are growing so much I can hardly breath in that dress! :p
We decided a month ago that it would be time to start trying to have a baby. I found out that what I was told years ago I had – PCOS -could strongly diminish fertility and even prevent a pregnancy. As I am not getting any younger we decided that it was best to start now in case I needed to take fertility treatments which can take years and may not work anyway.
So one month ago I stopped taking the pill. My period was supposed to come last Tuesday but because I have PCOS it has never regular when I was not on the pill, I didn’t think much of it. In the mean time my breast were feeling sore just as they do before the period.
Because there was no way to tell when I would get pregnant, or if I could at all, we bought quite a few pregancy tests over the internet so that we weren’t anxious each month my period was late. They arrived on Saturday. I decided I could just do one now and see how they work and get the thought out of my mind for this month so on Sunday early hours I needed the toilet and did the test. It said to wait 5 min for the result but if the hormone levels were high enough it could only take 40 seconds to see the magic line appear. Well it didn’t take 10 seconds. The line was there. I was still very sleepy and not sure if I was seeing things. So I woke up Russ and asked him to read the result and the leaflet that came with it and see if it was really positive. He said it was.
We just look at each other not really believing what was happening. How could this be? I’ve only stopped taking the pill a month ago! I’ve been taking it for years and the doctor said it could still have an anti-conceptional effect during up to 2 years!
We just smiled and hugged and… I don’t know. It is all very odd. Even now it’s not really sank in.
The only symptoms I had besides the sore breasts were the fact that I stopped being able to enjoy coffee in the morning. No sickness, no nothing. I decided to buy another test, the ones that tell you how many weeks you are just to confirm. That same day I took it and it was positive 2-3 weeks. We even took a picture of it :$
Today I called the doctor in the morning and asked what the hell am I supposed to do now? He laughed and said that I should make an appointment with the midwife in 3 weeks and she will organise all the tests, ultrasound, advice, etc.
We started reading loads on the internet about what to do, and bought some pre-natal vitamins. We decided we are not going to tell anyone just yet because there is a very high rate of miscarriage during the first 3 months especially for first pregnancies and we didn’t want to tell everyone that we lost the baby if something happened. Instead we are only going to tell Russ’s parents and sister and of course my best friend Vanda. Besides wanting to share the big news with the ones that are important to us, it is always good to have someone who can give us emotional support if something happens.
We are a bit concerned at the moment. We don’t want to get our hopes too high and then get hurt if something happens. I have been having some strong sharp pains in my ovaries and this can be a sign of ectopic pregnancy which can be very dangerous. The least it could happen would be a forced abortion 
. So I’m not going to wait 3 weeks and I’m going to call the midwife tomorrow and see what she thinks. Hopefully everything will be ok (yn) All I can say now is that I have a stupid smile on my face 
